Ohhh, life

Well... where to start?
I'm going to be addressing numerous issues today, so I'm pretty sure this is going to be a long ass post. Bby, I know you wanna blog more often... so do it! Don't think that you need to have a good topic to blog... Sure, sometimes you'll have stuff to say, and sometimes it'll be pointless, but I love hearing anything you have to say :) Sooo anyways, I'm going to separate this into categories, I guess to make it more organized:

Babysitting Adventures:
Yeah... I babysat last night. I usually like babysitting these kids, but lately they've been fucking cuuhhraaazzy! Okay so rememember, there's three of them: Isabel ( the oldest, she's about 6 - HATE her), Parker (he's like 4? He's a twin, and he's really cute, but he can get annoying as fuuck), and Lilly (By far the cutest, she's Parker's twin, she's adoraaaaaaable!). They're all like blond and blue eyed kids, pretty cute... but they drive you crazy. This is what my evening comprised of:

- Isabel stealing my phone, going through my pictures, and asking me the following questions:
"Are you and your boyfriend married?"
"Do you live together?"
"Do you kiss him?"
"What's his name?"
"He looks tired here...." "yes Isabel, he'd just woken up" "how do you know? you said you don't sleep with him"

- Lilly clinging to me the whole night and kissing every part of my face (I really didn't mind, she's my favourite :D)
- The 4 of us dancing to some gay CD they had... then Isabel trying to pull my pants down... WTF?!
- Lily saying that she likes my "boobies" and asking if she can suck on them because apparently they produce milk (yes, because I've been pregnant lately)
- Isabel wanting to eat an entire Mango... SHOUTOUT TO M ♥... which btw she succeeded in doing - Lily asking me to wipe her ass after she took a shit
- Well... they have this creepy black cat [we all know how much I love cats]... so umm... after the kids went to bed I spent 3 hours stuck on the couch afraid to move and refusing to make eye contact with the little beast -.-

Overall.... I hate kids... Like really? Isabel was just asking to get flushed down the damn toilet. Ohhh well, made a good $60 which is going towards paying bby back for hotsayy3 (:

My future?

Soooo, this weekend I finished my Schulich application =D. I'm hoping to send it in tomorrow or Tuesday. Well, NBD, my future depends on this. At least I got accepted to York Economics... so at least I have somewhere! Rotman is a bitch btw... they make life sooo complicated! Shit brah, like 300 words on how extracurriculars have shaped me into the perfect Rotman student... And for the extracurrcular section they're sooo strict with everything you fill in... some of the options don't even apply to me like WTF. And then they have Arts, Music, and Athletics... yeah, I doubt I'm getting into Rotman. I have no artistic, musical or athletic experience whatsoever :) life's great. I kinda wanna go to UofT... I know this will come as a surprise... but UofT > York. It's such a beautiful university with such a rich history! And it's downtown. And okay, not gonna lie, the number one reason is that bby goes there :$. Well I'm obviously not going to pull a Lauren Conrad and possibly ruin my future due to that... but it would still be amazing to go to school together :D. I guess whatever's meant to happen will happen. If I get into Schulich (I really wannnaaa!!!!!), then Schulich it is! But if I don't get into Schulich and I get into Rotman, then there's nooo way I'm going to york. Pfftt. So we'll see how everything goes. I still have to work on my Rotman essay. I feel sooo uninspired, lmao. Anyways, we'll see how everrything goes. & maaaan, I have to start studying for my damn math exam... it's going to be a fail. I know it will. buuuut whatevs!

Dreams:

WTF? I've been having SO many dreams lately :S. First, I dreamt about hooking up with Drake (pretty good dream, not gonna lie), then I dreamt about hooking up with PAULY D ANNNNDD VINNY :D. That was also pretty good ;). I finally dreamt about my bby two nights ago, and last fucking night I dreamt about Alvaro & M.R. Lmao really? My ex-Latin lover and my ex-latina slut friend. What are the chances of that? Alvaro looked like Taylor Lautner btw... which was kinda vomit inducing. I haaate him & his pig nose! Anyways, yeah this is pointless, but bby is sleeping and I am just gonna settle for talking to myself.

*BTW bby, I'd like to remind you that I fully predicted that you were gonna sleep through the whole night :D... That's good though, I'm glad you're getting some sleep ♥*

My Relationship Interfering Problem

Why do I always do this? I obviously never mean to, but I somehow manage to interfere with other people's relationships. *sigh* Like realllyy? Long story short: In September, Heks visited me during lunch and didn't tell A because it was a last minute decision, then she called him & heard me laughing in the background and apparently it hurt her. Welll, he was going to tell her.... it's not like it was planned. BTW A, you're a huge ass fucking hypocrite because you hang out with tons of guys, just saying. Anyways, so apparently she keeps this allll bottled up for 4 months and decides to bring it up sometime last week. Ever since then, they've been fighting nonstop. Honestly, I know it's not really my fault, but it sucks to know that I'm involved. Like I know Heks loves her and I don't want them to break up :S. My theory: she's using this as an excuse to start fights. I feel like she wants to break up with him. IDK, apparently things were better today, so we'll see... he's seeing her tomorrow for their 5 months (Me and bby's 7 months :D), so hopefully they talk things out. They ain't breaking up, not on my watch! They actually make a good couple... Both heardheaded as fuck :D

Family

Well... I could go on FOR DAYYYSSS. Great... well I tried talking to my dad like you said bby, and as I predicted, it didn't go well :(. Brief synopsis:
Me: okay, before you start to contradict me or try to convince me that I'm wrong, I want you to know that I don't care. I don't care who's wrong or who's right, but tomorrow is mom's birthday, and you have to at least try to be nice to her. (He's rolling his eyes at me by this point).
Dad: It's not about being right or wrong, but when you have to deal with something for 25 years, you run out of patience
Me: well you have to realize that everyone is different. You can't expect everyone to be like you. And you understimate her too much. And another thing... you have friends... you can find happiness in other things... but mom doesn't have anyone... she only has us... and if you're mean to her -
Dad: I am not mean to her
Me: Yes you are! Some of the things you say are so cruel
Basically... he just walked out on me after this. And the sad thing, I can kind of understand why. I'm very similar to him in many ways, and if I hadn't worked so hard to change this, I know that I'd be just like him when I get older. I really am very similar to him, and I'm really working on changing this so I don't end up becoming like him. I know he struggles too. There are many things about himself that he hates, but he just can't change that. And I know how much it frustrates him. And there's also the added stress of having to support the family blah blah blah, which he's doing a very good job at, so I can't complain. Honestly, despite being strict, he is a very caring and good dad. I recognize and appreciate that. But the way he treats my mom is horrible :(. He always looks down on her, and makes her feel worthless. Bby always says opposites attract, and I agree, but could it be that some types of "different" just don't work out? I mean they're COMPLETELY different. Me and bby ARE different, but there are a lot of things about our characters that are similar. (they may not be obvious at first, but there really are). Anyways, seeing my mom hurt really gets to me. It makes me sad, and when she sees me sad, she gets even sadder. It's a damn vicious circle. I know that me and my brother are there for her, but we can't replace a husband. It's just a different type of love :S. You need that romantic love in your life, regardless of how old you are. And I'm pretty sure they've lost that. I know my dad isn't very happy either, so I just feel like shit :). After trying to talk to my dad I broke down (what else is new eh?) and then E walked in, and he did his job as an amazing brother. He managed to make me feel so much better. I really love him a lot ♥. Maaan, tomorrow is her birthday, I don't want her to be unhappy :(. I'm thinking of buying her flowers and writing her something nice. I don't know, we'll see. AAAHHH, all this drama always makes me think of bby. I wish my dad made my mom happy the way he makes me happy :(. That's why I feel so sad for her. It's such an amazing feeling, and I know they were in love for a long time... but I don't want it to end for her :(. I don't know what to do, and the sad thing is that I'm prettty sure there's nothing I can do. I hate feeling like I can't do anything to help her :(. I love you mommaa ♥♥♥.

MYYY BAAABBYY :)♥

Man, what would I do without you? My life would be a black abyss of sorrow (Stefaniuk). LMAO. No but it's true... I don't want to complain :(... but with university applications (250 word essays sound easy... but add on the pressure of your whole future depending on them... AND NOT SO EASY, now are they?), school work, exams coming up, my parents, and everything else, you're the only thing that's keeping me happy. I'm probably sounding suicidal haha so let me expand. If I hadn't met you, I'm sure I'd find happiness in something else, but now that you've been in my life for so long, I can't be happy unless things between us are fine. Obsessive? I think so, but we both knew that already :P. And I guess I don't mind, seeing as it makes me this happy! So... how does it feel to have a girl telling you all this? Haha, tomorrow makes 7 months :) and I really love you!!!!!!!!!!!!! You've been amazing to me bby, aaaaaaaamazing. I love every second we spend together, and everything about you. I tell you this all the time, blah, so I don't want it to get boring. You're my favourite thing eevvverrr!!! ♥ Yooooou complete me. I'm so happy with these 7 months, and I can't wait for the many more we have ahead of us :) [positive thinking :D]. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I GET TO SEE YOU ON THE 18TH!! SOO HAPPY, can't wait to see youu snoookumss [haven't heard that in a while eh :D]. i looooveee you bby, Happy 7 Months! & thank you for making me the happiest girl in the world! No, galaxy :D ♥

P.S - Sorry about the CDM thing again, sooooooooooo stupid :P